If Heaven weren't so far away.....

I heard this song not too long ago, and haven't heard it again until today. It really had me thinking, what if Heaven weren't so far away?

This is what I would do.

I would take Jacen to meet his big brother and his great grandpa, great grandma and uncle who passed away an hour after he was born. We would have a picnic. I would hold onto and kiss my baby boy. I would tell him over and over again how much I love him and miss him. I would tell my grandpa how much I love and miss him. We would run free in the wide open spaces that I image heaven to have. I would watch my two sons playing together while I sat and talked to my grandpa.  I would tell my baby how sorry I am that I could not save him. I would enjoy seeing my boys with their great grandpa and grandma. I would talk to my brother and get to know him. I would tell them all just how wonderful and special they are.

There is so much more. I am sure we would be making multiple trips. There is just so much and it couldnt all be done in a day.

I miss my baby boy so much it hurts. If only heaven wasn't so far away.

If only.....