Sunday, August 23, 2009
I guess there is a point in time where I just have to learn to accept what I can not change and try to move forward. As hard as that is, I believe it will be one of the things that gets me through. Of course the only thing that keeps me trying to move forward is that I know one day I will be with my sweet boy again. No day since that fateful day has been easy, no new day has changed what has become. But everyday is one day closer to going home to my son. One sweet day the heavens will open for me and my baby will be just on the other side waiting for me. I will run to him and never let him go. Each night that I put Jacen to bed I pray to God to keep him safe and ask for one more day with him. He is the medicine for my heart. He is the reason I wake up each day and go to bed each night. He is the reason why I am allowed to see his brother. Without him I don't know that God would allow it. Both of my boys are the reason I still believe. Since they have been here I have seen things that I never would have imagined before.
I love you son and miss you everyday. I'll be there one day.
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